hello all.

first topic: classes. the last time i updated was thursday before anthropology. since then i have dropped anthropology, enrolled in a computer science class thats too advanced for me, and called my advisor to switch out of that into international relations and politics, aka where i should be. i went to a career counselor today because i am lost and confused, and realized that my interests divide into 3/4 categories. first category is the more artsy side which has advertising, directing/producing, and graphic design. all those things sound so awesome, but are just so out there i never really thought seriously about them. another category is the business category which i am slowly but surely realizing is not for me. the third is the politician and lawyor side which is probably where i will end up cause really, thats what i like. and then the 4th yet questionable category cause it could combine with the 3rd is like criminology and working for the cia and stuff. that just sounds cool lol. but anyways, thats where i am with that right now. lets hope everything works out!

second topic: people. ok, so dont get me wrong, everyone i have met and gotten to know here pretty much has been really nice, but i know and im sure they know that i havent found my fit yet. like, i dont know. i get the feeling that im being judged and i hate it. like, i dont know how to explain it. i like to do certain things, and i dont like it when people are like, omg shes blah blah blah. cause honestly, im not judging u for the things u do i dont approve of, so dont judge my lack of care for color cordination and the masses of other things. lol, by the way this is aimed at no one just my annoyance in general. i need to find more people like dustin and kyle and colton who just look at the world and say fuck it all and like it that way. yea, thats a great place to be lol. people here just generally think im crazily cynical. which isnt true, im just more cynical than them. i dunno, im sure it just takes time to fit in anywhere, but its so weird cause it seems like everyone has already found their perfect fit of friends, and i love megan and matt, but like, i dont know. blah.

third topic: boys. boys suck. pretty much all of them. if you think u dont suck and want to explain your position on why, your more than free to do so, but really, guys really do just want ass. and matt needs to stop making guys want it more lol

anyways, it seems like i had more to say but i cant remember it. cigars are good. bye!